First Sentence Fridays – Chapter 26
For me, losing “the girls,” Bella and Kiwi was one of those times. They both developed Stage IV kidney disease and we had to make that tough decision for the both of them in the summer of 2012. I was devastated, so heartbroken I could barely function. (unexpectedly they both became sick because of jerky treats, and some of you reading this might remember it. It’s a LONG, awful and sad story I won’t go into here)
Losing my father was another one. He was having one of his better days when this picture was taken. He too, had kidney disease, Stage IV. He opted not to do dialysis and I know he suffered greatly during the last year of his life. Once he was gone, I think the combination of relief his battle was over and my sadness at the fact I’d never see him again, or hear him say “Dino’s on the phone!” (nickname) rendered me incapable of eating for some time.
I have concluded for me, loss of those I love as well as arguing puts me into a state of emotional turmoil, and the idea of eating? No.
There is an intimate connection between the brain and the gut, and studies have proven it. Like this article states, it’s the reason we describe certain life events as “gut wrenching,” or that we perhaps get “butterflies in our stomach” at the thought of doing an activity that makes us nervous.
Given my own personal way of processing what happens in my life, it was natural to write the scene with Sonny unable to eat after a particular event occurs in the story. From the sentence in Chapter 25 last week, to the scenes following which take place as the family sits down to eat Thanksgiving dinner, Sonny is soon in a state of emotional turmoil, and all tied up in knots.
Mama brought me a turkey sandwich and a glass of milk later on in the evening, but I didn’t want it.
***Unbelievably, we are only eight weeks away from the ON SALE date for the book, January 29, 2019!
For now, the “Home” page on my website has “buy buttons” for some of the primary sites where you can pre-order.