Revving The Engine
Just today, I’ve been ogling the three issues of the WD magazine I need to read. I especially want to read July/August because an article in there discusses “SECRETS TO PAGE TURNING THRILLERS AND SUSPENSE.” But I’m such a twerp when it comes to being orderly, I feel the need to read them in succession. Don’t ask me, I dunno.
And then, the thing is, every time I sit down and try to read during the day, I can’t – unless it’s on the internet!! (pulls hair) I don’t know why I can focus for HOURS when it comes to the stuff out “here,” but much like McDonald’s food, the internet sucks you in with the same addictive qualities of a psychedelic drug. (I wouldn’t know, mind you, but that is a great analogy isn’t it?) Yet, for some reason, as soon as I flip a magazine or book open, all I can do is think, “I should be writing!”
And so, I write. And then I remember I haven’t looked at the regular blogs I follow yet, so off I go for a visit. Then, b/c I have a big mouth, I have to comment, then I realize my own blog hasn’t had a post in a few days. Then I check my email. Then, I look at the clock and I’m in a panic. I only have a couple hours to write! I open up the ms, somehow find myself stuck on a sentence somewhere in Chp 1. I should just leave it alone, because I’m supposed to be working on Chp six – which is where I was working last time I left it. Eventually I look at the clock. SH–! I have to cook dinner!
And I have to stop.
And another day is done.
And, I’m not satisfied with my progress.
And then I see in PM my agent has sold another book.
And then I see another book referenced by my editor a few months ago has also sold.
And I go to bed and I think, well damn. But, tomorrow, tomorrow I’ll stick to my plan.
Days like this feel like I’m just revving the engine, while never coming out of Park.
Am I the only one ?